Happy Monday again, back to the grind stone. This weekend was relatively fun for the most part, a lot of what I like best, nothing. Never was a “big plans” kinda gal.
I didn’t meet my goals this weekend as far as health goes but the one point that is now glaringly obvious, I NEED routine on the weekends. Much like I have routine Monday – Friday. I have to have it to function properly and meet my ultimate goals. So this week I will be focusing on these three TOP goals:
1. Eat 4-5 veggies and 2 fruits EVERY day
2. Drink AT LEAST 70 oz. of water a day (more is fine)
3. Get back into the habit of REGULAR gym visitis. (this week will not be so much WHAT I do at the gym so much as focusing on getting there every single day habitually. I’ve been “skipping” the gym way too much and coming up with any excuse under the sun to justify it. Buck stops here. I’m never going to get the butt I want by constantly sitting on the one I already have.
And one final “goal” (more of a “I really want to prove to myself I can do this). NO treats Monday – Saturday. None. No excuse. No stress eating. NONE. Treats on Sunday only. (Dear God hear my plea….help me do this!)
Monday, November 7, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Thursday, November 3rd (5:30am)
Hallelujah, it's Thursday! I've decided to join in on the "REVERSE Resolutions Challange" created by Mary at "Fitthisgirl.com" so for this challange I need tocome up with 2 "goals" TODAY, these two goals must fit the "SMART" criteria
I am not really good with setting goals, I'll lay that right out there. I always have the loftiest of goals for myself to which I have all of the best intentions but I get frustrated and always give up. So I ask myself this morning after reading Mary's emailed instructions, what are your two goals Jen? The FIRST thing in my head was "I want to lose 100 lbs!" Seriously? 100?...in 60 days? See what I mean? So for now I'm just going to list (up to 10) the ideas that I want to see happen over the next 60 days. From this list I will choose two "goals"...with Mary's help (I'm hoping) What do I want to achieve over the next 60 days?
1. I want to lose 20 lbs.
2. I want to not run for the food/snacks when emotions start running high or heated
3. I want to go to the gym consistently, without fail, 3 times a week.
4. stay away from "snacking" monday - saturday
5. I want to consistently eat no less than 5 veggies a day
6. I want to consistently drink at least 72 ounces of water a day
7. I want to wear my khaki pants comfortably (currently quite snug but wearable...not comfy)
8. I want to consistently lift weights 3 times a week
9. I want to run 3 miles in 40 minutes
10. I want to improve my bendiness
There...that's 10. Now I have to choose 2. Need to think on this a bit. Back later.
1. I want to lose 20 lbs.
2. I want to not run for the food/snacks when emotions start running high or heated
3. I want to go to the gym consistently, without fail, 3 times a week.
4. stay away from "snacking" monday - saturday
5. I want to consistently eat no less than 5 veggies a day
6. I want to consistently drink at least 72 ounces of water a day
7. I want to wear my khaki pants comfortably (currently quite snug but wearable...not comfy)
8. I want to consistently lift weights 3 times a week
9. I want to run 3 miles in 40 minutes
10. I want to improve my bendiness
There...that's 10. Now I have to choose 2. Need to think on this a bit. Back later.
Monday, July 25, 2011
My journey to the Warrior Dash...the very beginning...
Ok, how to even begin to document Warrior Dash – Minnesota, 2011 is, as of right now, a complete mystery to me. My original plan at the time of registration (November 16, 2010) was to lose a ton of weight and the conquering of this event would be my pinnacle. Well, so much for lofty goals. I never did get to the weight I “wanted” (or deemed necessary for that matter). I did actually do a very good job of waffling back and forth and though I did actually lose about 15-20 more pounds over the year I virtually maintained for the most part. Which…is great, don’t get me wrong, as any “normal weight” person will tell you, maintaining is hard and I have proven this year that I can, indeed, maintain weight. I want it written down, for the record though, that my dream was to actually maintain 150 pounds…not the 248 that currently reside on my 5’6” frame.
I did continue to watch what I ate, went the gym on my scheduled days (for the most part). There were a few months we didn’t get our “bonus” (a reduced membership premium for attending 12 or more times a month) because we didn’t meet the monthly attendance requirements but overall we did well. For sedentary people we do move a lot. I decided that I couldn’t do the nutrition portion of my journey alone. It was quite apparent early on that I could not be trusted. I could not trust myself to stick to my “plan” and eat the “good” and steer clear of the “bad”. I could justify anything at any given time and I found out very early that I truly am a wealth of excuses just waiting to erupt, each and every one of them very plausible (if not wholly believable).
Entering, stage left…Weight Watchers.
Weight Watchers is a great plan and it worked for me, it probably would still be working for me if not the financial implications of belonging to such a warm and welcoming group of “do-gooders”. For $39.95 a month, plus registration fees, snack fees, cookbooks, utensils, journal holders, 3 month trackers, water bottles, exercise videos, cookbooks, gum, special candies, restaurant guides and all those handy-dandy cannot do without, you name it, we got it, items you too can succeed. Don’t get me wrong, I truly did love Weight Watchers. I loved attending the meetings, hearing other people facing the same battles that I am on a daily basis, learning their tricks and tips to passing by the “too good to be true” donuts that just happen to always appear on the team tables and in the break rooms of offices near you. And all those “extras” mentioned above are just that, extras…you don’t HAVE to purchase them. But how can you not? Most of us wearing these shoes will do or try ANYTHING to make it to the next level of control. If it works for someone else, it MUST work for me. I’d be insane not to try…right? Well I tried…I lost, I gained…I maintained but in all honestly the most loss came from my bank account. So, even though I loved the meetings, my meeting leader and all those supportive people I’d come to really care for every Wednesday morning at 7:30am. I just couldn’t afford to “lose” anymore with Weight Watchers. Account closed.
I thought I could “go it alone” at this point, you know, follow the Weight Watchers plan on my own, using all those nifty gadgets I purchased during my membership and the knowledge I had thus far gained. I could do it on my own for FREE! Well, that lasted all of a couple of weeks. Without my weekly “accountability” my well of excuses over flowed and slowly but surely I stopped dropping. Here comes the waffling bits…up 2 down 1, up 4 down 5, up 3 down 1 and so on and so forth. Never really surpassing that special number on the scale, you know the one…the one that says “Oh no! I’ve failed again!”…but not really achieving that other special number, the “I CAN’T BELIEVE I’VE GONE THIS FAR…” number! The “one” number you haven’t been in 15 years or more. It wasn’t working and it wasn’t working in a big way. How was I EVER going to get to where I wanted to be in order to participate in the Warrior Dash if I couldn’t even conquer my kitchen cabinet?
I did continue to watch what I ate, went the gym on my scheduled days (for the most part). There were a few months we didn’t get our “bonus” (a reduced membership premium for attending 12 or more times a month) because we didn’t meet the monthly attendance requirements but overall we did well. For sedentary people we do move a lot. I decided that I couldn’t do the nutrition portion of my journey alone. It was quite apparent early on that I could not be trusted. I could not trust myself to stick to my “plan” and eat the “good” and steer clear of the “bad”. I could justify anything at any given time and I found out very early that I truly am a wealth of excuses just waiting to erupt, each and every one of them very plausible (if not wholly believable).
Entering, stage left…Weight Watchers.
Weight Watchers is a great plan and it worked for me, it probably would still be working for me if not the financial implications of belonging to such a warm and welcoming group of “do-gooders”. For $39.95 a month, plus registration fees, snack fees, cookbooks, utensils, journal holders, 3 month trackers, water bottles, exercise videos, cookbooks, gum, special candies, restaurant guides and all those handy-dandy cannot do without, you name it, we got it, items you too can succeed. Don’t get me wrong, I truly did love Weight Watchers. I loved attending the meetings, hearing other people facing the same battles that I am on a daily basis, learning their tricks and tips to passing by the “too good to be true” donuts that just happen to always appear on the team tables and in the break rooms of offices near you. And all those “extras” mentioned above are just that, extras…you don’t HAVE to purchase them. But how can you not? Most of us wearing these shoes will do or try ANYTHING to make it to the next level of control. If it works for someone else, it MUST work for me. I’d be insane not to try…right? Well I tried…I lost, I gained…I maintained but in all honestly the most loss came from my bank account. So, even though I loved the meetings, my meeting leader and all those supportive people I’d come to really care for every Wednesday morning at 7:30am. I just couldn’t afford to “lose” anymore with Weight Watchers. Account closed.
I thought I could “go it alone” at this point, you know, follow the Weight Watchers plan on my own, using all those nifty gadgets I purchased during my membership and the knowledge I had thus far gained. I could do it on my own for FREE! Well, that lasted all of a couple of weeks. Without my weekly “accountability” my well of excuses over flowed and slowly but surely I stopped dropping. Here comes the waffling bits…up 2 down 1, up 4 down 5, up 3 down 1 and so on and so forth. Never really surpassing that special number on the scale, you know the one…the one that says “Oh no! I’ve failed again!”…but not really achieving that other special number, the “I CAN’T BELIEVE I’VE GONE THIS FAR…” number! The “one” number you haven’t been in 15 years or more. It wasn’t working and it wasn’t working in a big way. How was I EVER going to get to where I wanted to be in order to participate in the Warrior Dash if I couldn’t even conquer my kitchen cabinet?
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
19 days and going in the wrong direction
Having a really hard time. Here we are July 5th, my "mini goal" of 10 pounds by August 1st is looking like a pipe dream and only 19 days remaining until I run the Warrior Dash. I've been eating like crap the last 4 days and using the holiday weekend as my excuse to extend "treat day" from Sunday to Thursday night, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Zero Gym days in there. What is wrong with me? Seriously, I KNOW what I want, I KNOW how to achieve it but I keep veering off the easy path and trodding down the path of self sabotage. I need some serious help, a 12 step program, an intervention, a shrink...SOMETHING.
Are you there God? It's me...Jennifer...
Are you there God? It's me...Jennifer...
Thursday, June 30, 2011
23 Days and counting!
WOW, 23 days until I run the "Warrior Dash" in Hastings! I never did quite get down to the weight I wanted to be before the actual race but that's ok. I sort of lost my way this summer, strayed off my path by just a hair and lost my clear view of the road. Have no fear though, I think I've found it again and if I just keep putting one foot in front of the other I'll make it.
There are 11 obstacles in this race and there are only about 2 that I am really concerned about, however, I am trying hard to ignore the fat lady in my head dooming me to failure before I even try. You can't win the race if you don't run, right? Concerning obstacles? Well, the walls (climbing up) and the Rapelling down the steep slope. Jim was awesome last Sunday at my session, he brought this huge rope and tied it to one of the stairway bannisters at the gym and we tried to "simulate" pulling myself up the slope with the rope. It wasn't a perfect simulation but it worked enough to feel it and to get the general "gist" of what to expect. Thanks Jim! Thanks for pushing me and for never giving up on me!
Decided to try implementing "mini goals" into the mix. Figure if I can hit a mini goal in a shorter amount of time that the smaller successes will keep me motivated and in time lead to the bigger success that currently seems so elusive. Mini goal #1 : Lose 10 pounds by August 1st. Will keep you posted.
Time for work...and coffee.
There are 11 obstacles in this race and there are only about 2 that I am really concerned about, however, I am trying hard to ignore the fat lady in my head dooming me to failure before I even try. You can't win the race if you don't run, right? Concerning obstacles? Well, the walls (climbing up) and the Rapelling down the steep slope. Jim was awesome last Sunday at my session, he brought this huge rope and tied it to one of the stairway bannisters at the gym and we tried to "simulate" pulling myself up the slope with the rope. It wasn't a perfect simulation but it worked enough to feel it and to get the general "gist" of what to expect. Thanks Jim! Thanks for pushing me and for never giving up on me!
Decided to try implementing "mini goals" into the mix. Figure if I can hit a mini goal in a shorter amount of time that the smaller successes will keep me motivated and in time lead to the bigger success that currently seems so elusive. Mini goal #1 : Lose 10 pounds by August 1st. Will keep you posted.
Time for work...and coffee.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Today is: Saturday, February 19th - 2011
Not really liking the name of my blog anymore and trying to think of something new. Drawing a blank currently but that could be the realization that it is now 4pm and we have plans to meet for a double date at 4:30pm and I have yet to change my clothes. Make up? No make up? That IS the question and hence the writters block when it comes to a catchy, "really truly captures the essence of me" blog title. Perhaps this IS as good as it gets...
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